Epiphany

A few days ago I had a bit of a breakdown.  It's been a really busy week filled with lots of decisions and it finally got to me.  After talking with Nick briefly on the phone about a certain decision we needed to make, I sat in front of the computer and just cried for a few minutes.  Later that evening I was back in front of the computer, working on the same decision, when I decided to take a mini break.  I got up, stretched, and grabbed my scriptures.  I opened up and read the first highlighted scripture I saw...'wheresoever your treasure is, there shall your heart be also'.  

It wasn't until today that those words really sunk in.  I realized that I have been stressing way too much about the small things. I've also completely misplaced my focus.  Me and Nick's overall goal is to create a warm and inviting home in which the Spirit can dwell and in which we can raise our children to be happy and loving and faithful individuals.  I've lost my perspective, though, as I've had to make all of the 'little' decisions. For example, the type of knobs to use on our drawers.  In the end, that really isn't going to matter.  Sure, I want to like them, but my knobs are not going to affect my ability to raise my children, nor are they going to be something I think about every single day! (If so, shame on me.) 

 What really matters is that (a) I remember to be grateful for all that I have, and (b) that I keep my heart in the right place.  I know I am a daughter of my Heavenly Father and that He loves me. I know that my Savior Jesus Christ lived, died, and rose again, so that I (everyone!) might have the chance of return to live with my Heavenly Father.  I have a beautiful family that I know I can live with through the eternities if I live as I'm supposed to.  I am blessed everyday more than I even know.  I need to remember these things.  I need to keep my focus on what matters most and have an attitude of gratitude (not one of stress!), especially now that things are getting busy and crazy and everything else.